Wet, wet and wetter!

So here I am in the second trimester and over the last six weeks I’ve been feeling rather um… damp… down there! Sorry if too much info… don’t read on! I mentioned it to my midwife and she said is it wee? To which I replied… “probably?” …but really I wasn’t at all sure and…

Anomaly Scan at 20 weeks

Where did the first 20 weeks go? Looking back it feels like it’s gone quickly but it has also dragged too! I’ve been so anxious that getting to the anomaly scan with a healthy baby has felt like an unlikely challenge over which I had no influence… I’m not sure why I’ve been so anxious…

Clueless and Curious go to The Baby and Toddler Show

This weekend Hubby and I went to our first baby show at Sandown Racecourse. I was up nice and early bouncing around ready to go. Pretty much the first time in this pregnancy I’ve allowed myself to get excited and plan ahead. It did feel good! We arrived a little early and queued up outside…

Pregnancy Diary – Month 4

This last month has flown by! Probably because the nausea and sickness of month 3 have gradually gone away, coupled with the relief of seeing wriggling baby at the dating scan. The fog has lifted and I can think clearer – a huge relief.  I still get bouts of queasiness but usually over strong smells…

Ante-natal Pilates

With all the big body changes coming up I decided that it would be a good idea to take care of myself for a change! So I hunted and hunted and hunted for an ante-natal exercise class… one found one. Just one!  I found tonnes of post-natal classes but barely any for during pregnancy. Which…

A very exciting day!!

Today was our dating scan day. It has felt like an absolute age in coming around. I’ve been very tense and anxious, barely daring to hope that a tiny little being was safely growing inside me.  I hardly slept last night… not because I was laying awake worrying and imagining the worst case scenario though…

Pregnancy Diary – Month 3

Well this month has been the longest so far – I almost said ever but I’m suspecting that Month 9 will take that title! I’ve had a long old wait for my “not 12 week scan“. It’s nearly week 14 and the additional eleven days have been very hard. I tried to ask people to…

NOT a 12 week scan!

So you’re pregnant… such an exciting and scary time… full of waiting and more waiting and more waiting. Early on you get told that the first trimester is risky and it is best (I totally disagree!) to not tell too many people about your happy little news until you have your 12 week scan… So…

Pregnancy Diary- Month 2

Why count my pregnancy in months? Um… for some reason 2/9 seems better than 8/40 or 60/280… but then fractions have never been my forte! Smaller is simpler in my little brain. Plus the last few weeks have gone by in somewhat of a nauseous blur! I had every intention of trying to write a…

The Science of Pregnancy

The Science of Pregnancy… how does it all work? I became my own science investigation while trying to conceive!

Baby’s 1st picture

Yes that’s a baby… according to the scan lady. “There it is!” she exclaims… “Where?” asks my befuddled Hubby! “See that fluttering?”… “that’s the heart beating”… “ok, wow!” we both murmur. So this is really, really early: about 6 weeks and 4 days. I’ve been having quite a lot of one-sided pain and finally gave…

Here we go… again!

After the heartbreak of miscarriage it was a big decision to keep trying to conceive. The fear of a repeat occurrence is immense. Drawing from some deep unknown reserve we bravely faced the possibilities and allowed a tiny glimmer of hope into our hearts. This week we were rewarded with two blue lines that are…

How can we remember? Ideas welcome…

Coping with loss and coming to terms with grief is such a complicated journey. Anyone who has lost a baby through miscarriage will know that it’s an odd thing to deal with. People often say “its natural” or “it didn’t exist yet” or “its common – 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage” or “you…

One of  the lads?

Throughout my life I’ve always been the rough and tumble kinda girl. Brought up on outdoor pursuits with mud, water and sticks as playthings. Yeah… much as I hate the term… “a tomboy”. I fit in so well as “one of the lads” and am luck enough to have been accepted on an equal footing…

Miscarriage – silence is painful… how to help…

How do you help someone who has a miscarriage?
The most common response I get when telling people that I had a miscarriage was silence… awkward… people don’t know what to say… then they give you a hug… and that’s the start…

I had the dream… what does it mean?

´╗┐Last night I vividly dreamed about giving birth. Not in the fearful worrying kind of way. It was calm and each stage was markedly clear with such high levels of emotions I woke up with tears on my face.  I imagine that dreams of giving birth are probably not uncommon in pregnant ladies… but I’m…

Two Blue Lines? Get ready…

Congratulations on getting a positive pregnancy test…

Now what? Everything is up in the air and you may be wondering what to do?

“Two blue lines” Checklist…

Fruit Loopy #2 Blueberry

This week has undoubtably all been about the boobs! Somehow it seemed very fitting for them to be paired with blueberries!

Fruit Loopy #1 Apple Seed

From microscopic pair of cells to an apple seed sized embryo… The last six weeks have been quite a roller-coaster of emotions and feelings…

Is this really it?

I don’t know why I did a pregnancy test today… I just had to check… and if my eyes are not mistaken there is a line that just changed our lives!!! My last cycle started on the 15th February with a normal period of four days with medium to heavy flow and all the grumpy…

Not in The Club

“Trying to conceive” – a phrase signalling that you want to start the journey of becoming a parent. Something that until now seemed like a foregone conclusion of having unprotected sex. Not once until now did anyone mention that getting pregnant (and staying pregnant) is actually a rather complicated, unpredictable and challenging task! As a…

Not quite how I pictured it!

Picture this… Valentine’s Day, a walk together chatting about hopes and dreams, a lovely meal at home with red roses on the table. Excitement building as we find out whether we’ve conceived… It’s our first month of trying to conceive and I’ve had all sorts of signs and symptoms. I’m four days ‘late’ and have…

#WaitToWee Great campaign… so hard to implement!

I read about the #WaitToWee campaign while cruising Twitter looking at various trying to conceive and early signs of pregnancy posts.  I totally didn’t appreciate the desperate “need to know” feeling that came over me once I entered the dreaded “two week wait” phase… I just can’t settle down and every possible sign either way…

Nesting…

I’m not even pregnant yet and the desire to nest has seriously kicked in!  I lay awake several nights last week because I was worrying about how to make room in the house for a little one. We have a two bed house but our support network lives a long way away… so we’d like…

Reading too much!

With the decision to go ahead and try to make a baby this month comes the inevitable… ekk! What the heck am I doing and how on earth does it all work? More importantly… will my body cope with everything that’s possibly on its way???! Tears! Oh dear, please don’t let that happen… Fluid retention!…

Rock, Paper, Scissors…

This is going to sound mental… We’ve come up with an odd way to make decisions about whether or not to have unprotected sex… Rock… Paper… Scissors… We’ve been having a lot of discussions recently about whether we want a family. We’ve had these discussions before on plenty of occasions and we’ve always fallen to…

Get this fire started!

Um… There’s no polite way to put this… I got my mojo back!!! Raaaarrrrrr!! My body seems to be finally getting back to normal after kicking the pill. It’s been two normal periods and oh boy… I cannot begin to explain how intense the desires are! Hubby is ecstatic and exhausted! He’s only got to…

Period Tracking App – Clue

So without the familiarity and more importantly the regularity of being the pill to control when my periods arrive I was at a loss to figure out important timings. I tried several apps and finally settled with Clue as its free and has quite a few features to track. I also like the visual feel and…

19 years on the Pill!

One of the biggest things I’ve struggled with in my life has been an overwhelming disconnect with my feelings towards being alive! I originally started on the pill when I was 14 (yes I’m 33 – where did the time go). At secondary school I started having these crazy blacking out moments where the world…